Delusional thoughts for the morbid mind...

wow

2007-07-19T00:18:59Z

So Mike let me know the other day that it has been a while since I posted an entry. I have been so busy lately that I completely forgot how much time has slipped away... I have been very busy lately with school and personal problems but I'm back. I would say more but for now I am going out in afew and have to get ready. But yeah I am back:) I will post more later. By the wy I sold out and got a myspace to those that don't know. The link is www.myspace.com/morbiddelusion A lot has changed lately including, me getting dreadies!! Until then keep your head up.
Cheers,
Nicole

Dude Wheres my Car? - chinese

2007-04-30T08:03:28Z

Borat Deleted Scene - Cheese

2007-04-30T08:01:08Z

Vampire thing...

2007-04-29T03:46:17Z

Hahahahahahahahahaha

I'm fucking blind!!!!!!!!!

2007-04-22T05:47:21Z

I just found out that one of my favorite bands is no more. This drives me fucking crazy because I was on their myspace two months ago and I didn't even notice their farewell post titled Farwell and goodnight posted in December letting everyone know that DFD is calling it quits and that they will be playing one last show in Baltimore on January 13th and how they would like everyone to come. (http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=390698&blogID=201693050&MyToken=5044352f-8af0-46ab-9220-4e8dc4807b9f) FUCK! I can't believe this shit. I can't believe I missed it. I feel like someone just drove a fucking blade in my chest. On the bright side though Todd and Jasan are in a new band called Polkadot Cadaver at http://myspace.com/polkadotcadaver and I just heard their new song on there and it sounds just like Dog Fashion Disco. I just hope they get the credit they deserve like DFD did. I will definatly be telling everyone I know about it. I hope I can at least see these guys in the future because I was just saying today how this has already been an awesome year because it's already march and I have seen 3 of my favorite bands (2 for the first time) and it's only April and how what would top it off would be to see Dog Fashion Disco because I have never seen them... *sigh* Farewell DFD, I will miss you terribly. May your other musical projects go far and rock out. The only thing that cheers me up is to know that they are still out there creating music and that they aren't gone forever...still, this is going to take a while for me to recover.... R.I.P. Dog Fashion Disco 1998-2007 I will fucking miss you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nine Inch Nails - The Perfect Drug

2007-04-22T03:47:08Z

The best NiN video of all time!!!!!!

Mother fucking Macabre!!!

2007-04-21T18:34:53Z

So I went to the Macabre show last night and it rocked!! It was at a small club which shocked me because there weren't that many people there at all and Macabre has been around for like 20 years. I don't know if noone knew about it or what but the fact that there weren't that many people there made it awesome. The members of Macabre were floating around the crowd the whole time during the 4 bands before them which were only local bands. So I made an ass out of myself meeting Coorporate Death saying stupid things to him but hey, he was still happy.:) Then Dennis the Mennis was hanging out aroung the merch table most of the time and I got to bullshit with him. He thanked me and my friend for buying the Macabre underwear and tank sets.:) Unfortunatly, I didn't get to meet Nefarious which is who I really wanted to meet most of all because he is an absolutly amazing bassest, but hey, I don't care. I had a wonderful time. I got tipsy and rocked out. haha. My one friend's band Serious Grind opened up and they were awesome. Macabre played a lot from the Dahmer cd and Murder Metal which made me happy. Especially when the played Scrub a Dub Dub!!!! I lost my voice for drunkly singing along with Corporate's high screeching vocals, and I'm a little sore from going absolutly nuts, but all in all, an awesome show!!!!!! I must go to work now and brag of my previous night!! To bad I didn't bring a camera, but I will leave you with a picture I just took rockin out my macabre tank. Also, if you don't know who Macabre is, I suggest you check them out at: http://www.myspace.com/macabre or http://www.murdermetal.com/ I got my friends into them very quickly:) Also, if you like metal, why not check out my friend Joe's band Serious Grind at: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=18801360 or http://www.bushmado.com/seriousgrind/index2.html And lastly before I get off here, I must also say that there is a new band I saw there that I REALLY enjoyed!!!! They are called Sathanas. Check them out as well at: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=17666901 or sathanas.net
Rock on guys!!!

Clicky click

2007-04-20T03:58:11Z

So fun to click:

Gia - Hey You - Pink Floyds

2007-04-15T06:29:59Z

I love her, and the song.

Angelina Jolie as Gia

2007-04-15T06:24:19Z

*sigh* I love her! This is my favorite Angelina movie

lou reed perfect day trainspotting video

2007-04-15T06:18:49Z

I love this movie because it's so weird and the song is of course awesome.....

morbiddelusion @ 2007-04-15T01:20:00

2007-04-15T05:25:41Z

Hahahahahaha. My register at work came out to be $666 dollers and some odd change!! hahaaha

Type O Negative Pete Steele

2007-04-11T22:47:10Z

haha
I liked this and wanted to share it with everyone.:D

TYPE O FUCKING NEGATIVE!!!!

2007-04-07T17:59:15Z

So the Type O Negative show was two nights ago and it was just absolutly awesome!! The only complaint I have is that it was too short and that I had to throw away my camera before I got in the venue so I couldn't take any pictures. At the merch table I met Slitzy which was funny. They played a good variety of songs and I was on Pete's side of the show:D.. The whole time I was there it was like a dream. Like, I couldn't believe I was finally there seeing them. I got to meet Johnny and Kenny. They were both very nice and I wish I could have gotten a piture with them. Kenny was shorter than I thought haha. I almost met Pete but I got too awestruck and by the time I finally snapped out of it he was leaving. He came out to thank everyone for comming. After, me and my boyfriend waited outside in 20 degree weather next to their tour bus and that's where we met Jhonny and Kenny. We had to leave before Peter or Josh might have come out. Oh well, I still had fun. Next time I have to find a way to smuggle in a camera and not ot get so shy when Mr. Steele is standing right in front of me!!! Perhaps next time......

Vacation

2007-03-22T03:29:20Z

Well everyone. I finished my school quarter and am half insane with lack of sleep but after tomarrow it will all be over until the next one starts!!!!! YAY!! Which is April 1st. I am leaving tomarrow night at 1am to Martha's Vinyard and I will be gone until th 30th. I will miss you guys. I will have many pictures to show when I come back and perhaps a funny post.... I actually still have to post about my time at the Leftover Crack and Citizen Fish show... but that will come soon enough... Until then, I bid you all adieu.
Nicole

Soothed nerves

2007-03-08T07:15:53Z

He is just so beautiful. WHat a good way to end my birthday. *sigh* And since I cannot show the actual video because of my account type, here is a direct link for anyone interested. http://www.youtube.com/w/?v=RCHUGnCDyQk&session=XQqFHM629d1XAtM7ufTZ3IOTduppQYwikvOyULRqnGXfWwWIloH4dlj64uOi6mzdrj7M3OpW3sy1SH2cLpkCjB0Y3Mc6NHa3FGj_3SeBc7h_i9KCsz5gmC-8e-aDXugy0vuetGx_o1iK4MWA2YVyRQ_Arj6Kq0L9# Beautiful.... I will leave you all now with a pic.

Goodnight everyone,
Nicole

In a haze....

2007-03-07T08:01:53Z

Well.... Today is officially my 21st birthday.... It is 2:54a.m.... I am not sure what the comming day will hold but I am hoping it will help me take my mind off some stressful matters at hand. Life is very strange sometimes...One day you seem to have everything you want and couldn't possibly wish for a single thing more. But with the snap of a finger you are grasping for something to hold you up. I feel like I am drowning.... I am still very young yet I feel that I have reached a life crisis.... In life you have friends, family, love, education, and work..... And when most are slipping it's hard to fix... Maybe I'm delusional.. It is 3am and I really canh't get my thought together properly... I think maybe I will see how this comming day will treat me.... I welcome any comments and hope that I have something better to say on this matter later....
Nicole

BACK:)

2007-03-04T07:02:14Z

Well I am now back with a computer. I missed you all!!:D I will have more later. There's too much to do now. Bye for now.

morbiddelusion @ 2007-03-01T13:59:00

2007-03-01T18:56:48Z

Click this bitches: http://ut.netmusicpromotions.com/d3ho309837shw4.html Click it many times!!

Tell your friends tell your family tell your creatures!! Tell inanimate objects, and more importantly: join.:D You know you want to!!!

By the way, I will have a computer by the beginning of this week(if anyone cares) YAY!!
Nicole

Busy...

2006-10-16T21:31:57Z

Hello all... The fall quarter is slowly starting to pick up the pace with more projects and such so I may start to dissapear for a little while. More than usual anyways. On top of that, I currently won't have a computer in my house until December so that sucks, but hey, it's good in a way I guess. I won't be able to get distracted now and will focus more on my work.... I will miss everyone! You know who you are;) If anyone still reads my junk, that is.. or am I even going to be missed? Perhaps not! *shrug*:) Whatever... Just letting everyone know I am not dead... Although I may look it at times:
I will continue to do some entries as the school quarter goes on but as for the tagboard *wink* not till December... Anyone who wants to stay in touch knows how to.... And I hope they do so. Well, I need to get going so I will leave you with this: Goodye for now but not forever......
I will be back
DUN DUN DUUUNNNNN!!!
Cheers,
Nicole

Doll addiction

2006-10-11T09:10:21Z

Holy crap I am addicted.. Here are some dolls I made on that addictive website:
Armand doll

Lestat Doll

Louis Doll

Little Jimmy Urine doll

Peter Steele doll

Me with red hair doll

Me with brown hair doll

And my boyfriend Dane doll

YAY!!!! I'M GOING TO GO TO BED NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!
for anyone interested, the website is http://elouai.com/doll-makers/new-dollmaker.php have fun with the new addiction!! I will leave you with my boyfriend doll with a new hat!:D

Back to school..

2006-10-06T04:00:57Z

This week has been so eventful so far. I have a lot of work to do... I went back to school on Monday. My acting class is so far so good. I have to write a monologue that lasts a minute so I am doing one inspired by Ed Gein and Bill Mosley... Weird one huh? Well, I want to come off as crazy so my character is going to talk and act a lot like Bill Mosleys character in House of 1000 Corpses and Devils Rejects because he is such a happy crazy person and I like the white trash accent. It's perfect for what I am doing. I am going to have the camera person come in while I am making soup and I will be talking about how my Mamma was very under the weather and she is doing so much better and how I am bringing her soup.. then, the last twenty secounds will be me bringing my Mamma her soup and she will end up being a corpse that has been there for a while(Ed Gein idea).My real Mom agreed to do this so I am going to do her makeup and my makeup is going to be so I look strung out like I don't sleep much... kind of like Otis I guess -smile-...Oh man I hope it works out... Well, I am off to bed now. I have an 8 a.m. class (hair teeth and eyes)... Can't wait. Good night all. I leave you with Mr. Moseley and a dead guy in House of 1000 Corpses:)

Hypnotized by the arm in the freezer..

2006-10-02T00:00:58Z

A job well done. What are your comments? Realistic? I hope so...

gOING tO sLEEP nOW....

2006-10-01T08:50:10Z

PLEASENT DREAMS EVERYONE!!!

-Nicole

Pointless

2006-09-24T03:29:22Z

Life, when it comes to my future seems so pointless sometimes. I am in school for special effects but no matter how hard I struggle, I get screwed over in the end. Is it because I don't try hard enough? Have I lost faith in myself? Is it normal to suck this bad at what I do? I am so confused. I want to do this but sometimes I feel like maybe it isn't right for me because I can never do anything right. My recent project I ruined at least three times and I am out of money!Also, this means after all this hard work and getting an extension from my teacher, I still have nothing to show for it. I am going to fail the class after all that! It makes me question where I will go in my life. This has always bothered me in the back of my mind but it becomes stronger each day and I don't know who to talk to about it that would understand or how to deal with it. The only one who knows the anwser is me but I don't have the anwser!!! This just continues to eat away at me, little by little. I usually never give up nor will I... I will always find a way to keep on keepin' on, but right now, I don't know how... Also, this live journal thing is starting to become pointless. Simply because I don't know enough people on here and noone comments on my shit...or reads it for that matter.. *sigh*...Will this be my last post? It might be.....

Your Vampire life (Anne Rice) by Litlemiss
Name
Age
Where are you from?
Fav. Color
Pick an object/something
You'll recieve the dark gift from	Akasha
You'll live with	Lestat
You'll live in	New orleans
You will fall in love with	Madeline
You'll be loved by	Santino
You'll be hated by	Louis
You fascinate	David Talbot
You'll be a great friend of	Armand
You will like to be friend with	Marius
and he/she	Will betray you
You will	be remembered forever